Do I need to enroll in another class for this?

The day started off  with a bang! Harps and Christian praises. I was bound and determined to open my Bible first before any ummmm... ex mail!! lol So I did! Right after closing my eyes and asking that God reveal to me His lesson for my life ... and boy did he reveal!

Beattitudes! HUH? But Lord? I always try to have such a positive , sweet attitude! What gives? (Matt. 5: 1-12)

"Blessed are the poor in spirit..."  (but my spirit is rich with joy, God!)
"Blessed are they that mourn..." ( but God, aren't I through mourning? He
                                                        has been gone over 7 years!)
"Blessed are the meek..." (OH! OK... meek might be an issue!)
"Blessed are they which hunger and thirst after righteousness..." ( I do! I do!)
"Blessed are the merciful..." (Awww... come on! I try! But did you see what
                                                 they did?)
"Blessed are the peacemakers..." (Cool... I got that one!)
"Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake..." (ummm... ?)
"Blessed are ye, when men (ex's) revile you, and persecute you, and shall say 
  all manner of evil against you falsely, for my names sake. REJOICE and be
  EXCEEDINGLY GLAD, for great is your  reward in heaven...." (YAY!
                                                                                                       Whoot whoot!)

I know ... He promises... Mine is the Kingdom of Heaven, I WILL be comforted, I WILL inherit the earth, I WILL be filled, I WILL obtain mercy, I WILL see God, I WILL be called His Child, and I WILL have great rewards in Heaven!

This spurred me on to watch one of Mark Crow's on-line services (He is awesome.. if you get a chance go check it out! http://www.victorychurch.tv/
I cannot say enough about him and his wonderful sense of humor and passion for not only us but for Our Lord! You will laugh and be fed fantastically with just a short 25 min video. They are my church home in Oklahoma City, Ok. and I really miss them! Shout out to Victory Church in OKC!! =) I love you guys!

So... feeling rejuvinated and ready to conquer the world. I set about tackling my new project of love... our church bulletin.

Now, remember.... I am in school for Interior Design... NOT Graphic Design! It is a whole different, amazing world!! Creative Design (Jacob Cass) is a friend on Facebook so I have to say I am increasingly becoming intrigued by this whole Logo and reworking pics type thing. Check out his site at http://justcreativedesign.com/

But... the programs feel like I need a B.S. in them to work! Maybe my mind just does not grasp all the "tech lingo" ... hence the INTERIOR DESIGNER FUTURE!! Lol

I want to say... the brochure turned out beautiful, If I may say so myself! Problem is... It's a WORD document that I did it on and no amount of saving it to any PDF ...XPS... etc etc... is helping me to figure out how to upload it to this blog ... or anywhere else that is! LOL

I have the "picture" and "link" thing down! And I see a little icon for a "movie" up there in my ribbon (HA! I DO know a little lingo! thanks to my Computer App class! ) but.... ????? I do not know what to do from here!

I'm usually pretty good at research but I'm tired and my head hurts from so much creating today!

Jacob... if you are reading this... HELP!! LOL
Anyone else know how to help? HELP!!! =)

Night everyone in my Crazy Fantastic World!!
                                                   

When we surrender to God's will... wonderful things happen!

Last night was crazy... went to my cousin's house to join in a small get together with many more family members the I have not seen in close to 20 years!! Things got emotional... things got heated... then things ended in hugs and kisses! Isn't it funny how families are?

I drank a little much ... that has not happened in , hmmmm.... maybe 2-3 years! So, my need to hit the porcelain throne overwhelmed me! UCK!  Don't think I will do that one again for a long time!

And  the next paragraph....

Church! Sound funny moving from getting drunk to going to church sound hypocritical??????  I am not your "churchy" kind of girl... however, I have a ever growing, every loving relationship with my God so ... yes! I went to church this morning. Feeling not so well physically, I pushed myself to get dressed and get there anyhow.

I am so glad I did! You see... God knows me well!  =)  He has graciously and lovingly kept me safe and He loves me unconditionally. What a gift that is... in a world so cold at times. He has held my hand when Quinn (my husband) died 7 1/2 yrs ago. He has gone before me to keep me safe when I made stupid choices to use meth. He now walks with me and provides for me as I seek Him and pursue not only my continued education but as I learn to live Meth-FREE!! (Praise Him!! ) Do I feel like a "hypocrite"... no! I feel "REAL"!!!!

Real is admitting we are no where near perfect but we are trying to be better!
Real is understanding that we can not fix anything or anyone... Only God can!
Real is brave and open and honest! Who we are, what we have done, and what God is doing in our lives each and every day to bring us closer to Him so that He may shine through us!!

Pastor Travis (of my new church home, The Refuge) spoke today on the two things God wants us to do. REPENT and SURRENDER!  As he spoke, I felt a stirring in my heart to give to the church the gifts and the talents God created in me! (could this be surrendering?) I have never "given" to the churches I have attended throughout my lifetime except my offerings. So this will be a journey and a blessing for me to begin! I'm so excited! I just had to share it with whoever might stumble upon this post!

What am I giving? ME! My time and a weekly bulletin. You see... I like to take notes, and God uses them at pre-planned dates and times when I will need them for a certain circumstance or challenge I might be facing. It's seems to be His way of reminding me of His word and His love! The Refuge does not currently have a weekly bulletin... so, after church this morning I offered my services (being purely amateur! LOL) to create and produce them each week. I have to give ALL the glory and honor to Christ as I leap out there with both feet ! I feel the peace of My God telling me to just follow and HE will give me the words to print and messages HE wants the readers to hear!

I left Church feeling alive and excited!! I couldn't have asked for more this morning!! =)

And finally... I got the opportunity to play "interior designer" for a friend the rest of the day! That ... is truly my other passion in life and one that I am currently in school for! I lay down this evening, a little sore from moving large furniture around and crawling up and down a chair to hang pictures and create a home for Heather to come home to everynight! My brain is a little tired from "creating" lol... thinking of "how would this look" ... "ok.. move this there, NOW how does it look?" ... "will she like it?" ... " am I reflecting HER style and not my own!!"  (although mine is pretty Fantastic!! LOL) But my soul is at peace and so very content and happy!

Now THAT... Is a Crazy -- Fantastic Day!